Am I BETTER? Ten months post achilles surgery

I just passed 10 months since my surgery:) I’ve stopped tracking things on instagram again because I just can’t handle social media. I am torn as to whether I should use it or not. Part of me has the urge to get on their and shout my piece as I feel it is sadly under-represented but I too often find the whole enterprise off putting. In the end I think I can have a bigger impact by writing my newsletter, posting longer form blogs, and speaking to the people in front of me. Maybe thats a bit weak, but I keep coming back to this place - maybe I need to stop fighting it and just except, that social media is not my jam.

I would like to repot that the achilles is about 90% better. I’m back playing squash and doing most of things I enjoy at a high level once again. Ive certainly lost speed and I dont have the stamina back in my legs quite yet, but I’ll keep working towards that alusive goal of “better” whatever that truly means. 

That leads to a good question - what does better actually mean? Of course there is no one way to define it. It is a deeply personal questions and will vary from person to person. Was i better when I had no pain? Was I better when I could run with the my kids? Was I better when I could play some squash? Most things come gradually overtime. I’ve been getting better month by month and now it really has less to do with an injury and more to do with my own physical goals and expectations I put on myself. I think i am better but I’ll keep working on improving….